This year hasn’t been the best, and honestly looking back neither has the decade either. I have spent a lot of it alone, full of anxiety and struggling with very little help. But I refuse to go into a brand new decade with those same problems.
I really do not wish to dwell on the past, as if you keep looking back you never can move forward but sometimes looking back can help you not create the same mistakes you’ve made in previous years. I know now how to deal with narcissists, however the emotional and mental damage has been done.
What I truly want for the next decade is to get along with people who I don’t really want too but its important I do, I don’t really want to get into to much details but I am thinking of my children with this matter and the things i’ve learnt from this amazing course for separated parents and using it in practice, I have a hope that one day for the sake of the children, we can put aside the petty digs and just get along.
I also got dumped again shortly before Christmas, the person who so kindly took me to the Harry Potter tour basically assumed every time I was going through a low moment was about him, honestly looking back at the short relationship there was so many red flags about him I put aside, he was a bit racist and really didn’t like seeing gay people, plus he refused to meet my family and vice versa which to me is the next part of a relationship. In the end he dumped me via text. Whatever!!
Next year, or next decade I hope to find love, move and just be happy, I’m half way there with some of those, I feel a lot happier being on my own than I ever did being in a relationship, I’ve really started to enjoy my own company and spending time with friends.
2020 is going to be a fantastic year, I have high hopes for it, I have more confidence and I’m even going into London on my own in January to the Toy Fair which I am so excited for, 2020 is going to be the year of content on my blog, lots of fun adventures for me and my children.
Cheers to a new decade.